A Proclamation of God's Word:
No More Cave! I Will Hear and Obey God's Voice!
by Charlotte Barton
I Kings 19:11-13, among others, has really ministered to me throughout my life. But there was a point in my life not long ago, that it and similar scriptures made a major difference in my life and brought an amazing break-through. I knew what God had called me to do. But I was in my cave of hiding from my past of shyness and intimidation and hiding from what others might think of me if I obeyed God's calling. I used to be severely shy. My mother said that my teachers never heard my voice until I was in Second Grade. But with what God had called me to do, I had to come out of the “shyness and fear caves”.
After I received the gift of the Holy Spirit at age sixteen, God brought a big change in my life in that area and continued into my adult years. At this pivotal point in my life that I am sharing with you about, I was not deep in the cave like I was when I was a child, but I still felt I was not completely out of the cave. I knew God's voice, but I needed to hear it distinctly and clearly to be able to go forth.
I was to an “unsettled” point in my life to where I felt I had to come out and stay out of the cave. I was at work in my office on my lunch break. I began to write what was in my heart as a proclamation to God and to put Satan under my feet where he is suppose to be. As a result of speaking forth the following in faith and standing on God's Word, a transformation took place in my life. I want to share with you exactly what I wrote as it came forth from my heart (so it may not all be grammatically correct). I pray that it brings victory or encouragement to your life as you read it or even pray it along with me:
“Through the word of my testimony I overcome my enemy. By faith (not feeling) I say that I have come out of the cave, out of the spiritual darkness that has hindered my ministry, Your calling, and my spiritual hearing. For outside the cave there is Your light surrounding me. Inside a cave my voice is distorted and hold me (bound up; confined) in a cave, to hinder Your guidance, to hinder His prophetic words from being heard clearly, to hinder me from speaking forth all that You give to me and show me. 2 Timothy 1:7 says that You have not given me a spirit of fear (timidity, cowardice, intimidation), but of power (boldness) and of love and of a sound mind (calm, well-balanced mind, disciplined, self-control).
As Jeremiah 20:9 said, There is a burning fire shut up in my bones, and I am weary of enduring and holding it in, I cannot contain it any longer! I WILL obey! I WILL hear Your voice! That still small voice within my spirit. I will not listen to the lies of the enemy that cause fear of man and what they think, and doubt in hearing Your voice, from hearing Your Holy Spirit, when You give me a Word to speak to others. You have, is, and will put Your Words in my mouth.
Just as Jeremiah 1:8-9 says, I will not be afraid of them [their faces], for You will touch my mouth as I open it to speak. You have and will put Your Words in my mouth. You are a liar Satan! I will preach and speak Your Word, God, in season and out of season, even when I don't feel like it. For my feelings, my flesh will not rule and dictate what I will do or speak for You. Here I am, God, send me! Use me for Your work however You see fit! I am Your vessel!
Your Spirit, Lord, is upon Me, because You have anointed me to preach the Gospel. I can't stand it inside this shy, backward, bound up, restrained feeling, this cocoon that I have been in! I remember a while back Pastor King said “I see a clear cocoon around you. You're in a cocoon-like thing, but when you come out, oh my Father, look out, cause God is making some major changes inside. You are just about to come out!” That is exactly how I have felt. God, You have been changing me, maturing me, preparing me for when I come out into my divine destiny to take my position on the wall.
Just like when a mother is ready to give birth she feels like she is going to explode, she knows that it is time; she is unsettled. A caterpillar is the same. It stays in the cocoon long enough to complete its preparation process, and it becomes unsettled, wiggles, and squirms KNOWING it is time to come out. I am so unsettled inside. I am screaming on the inside All I can think is “NOW! NOW! I'm coming out NOW!” By faith and obedience I step out of the cave! The cocoon is too small! I'm cramped! No more shackles, no more chains, no more bondage, I am free! No more shackles, no more CAVE! No more COCOON! I am FREE! No more shackles, no more CAVE! No more COCOON! I am FREE! Freedom! Freedom!”
(I felt the Holy Spirit urge me with His still, small voice to open my Bible. I flipped it open and it fell open to Daniel chapter 2. My eyes fell to verses 21-22 and the devotion inside it:
“21)He changes the times and the seasons; He removes kings and set up kings. He gives wisdom to the wise and knowledge to those who have understanding! 22)He reveals the deep and secret things; He knows what is in the darkness, and the light dwells with Him!”
The devotion section from my Joyce Meyer Amplified Bible that my eyes saw next said, “Verse 21 tells us that God changes the times and the seasons. This is not only true in the natural world, but in our lives. His timing and His ways are always perfect. Are you fully trusting Him to bring the changes you need in your life at the time that is right? He is doing a good work in you, so I encourage you to cooperate with the changes He brings. You will be glad you did.”)
“You are removing things in my life that needs removal and setting up things that needed to be in place for Your divine purpose in my life. You reveal and will reveal Your Words, secret things, prophetic Word, Words of Wisdom and Knowledge as long as I am out of the cave and darkness (caves are dark) and in the light where Your voice is not hindered, but clearly heard.
The timing must be now, the the change has got to be now. In the name of Jesus, I am cooperating and will cooperate with the divine appointed changes that are occurring and will occur. You are doing a major work in me. I can feel the stirring inside.
God, anything in my life that is not pleasing to you, I renounce and repent and ask for Your forgiveness. Cleanse me, Jesus, with Your precious blood. It is by Your grace and mercy that I approach the throne. In humble worship I honor You. For without You I am nothing. I can do nothing without You and Your Spirit dwelling within me. For what You have called me to do I cannot do without the power of Your Holy Spirit and Your anointing.
Fill me running over with Your presence, Your power, Your anointing! Stir up and increase the gifts You have placed within me! Stir! Release! Flow out! Take control of every part of me! Body, soul, and spirit come into alignment according to the Word of God! I step out in faith and go forth in what You have called me to do.”